thirteen of love to love God, to be loved and love, is the man ~ ~ a sense of heaven ...

 Because of Love Love is God, and to be loved and love, is full of people saying that makes sense, because of love and love is God, and to be loved and love, people, time was so slow to see Caesar ~ ~ He is a very talented man, though born in poverty, but he is very backbone, with the son of man that prettily unmatched fighting spirit and perseverance, he went step by step today, but I have to say, he is not starting from scratch! 2002, May 24, he has been wearing a worn white shirt cuffs and a very old gray and blue jeans, suddenly rushed to my house, when the evening, oblique rays through the windows, engraved in his left cheek, and he fiercely stood before my dinner table, my father and I are eating, and then he yelled, have been beaten black and blue. That year, I am 21 years old, without any hesitation, to marry him. because he looked at me in the eyes, despite everything. if he drowned, and only I can save him. Our wedding was very grand, this is either a vanity, it is either a declaration. In fact, it was like his father, always told me privately that he was he praised the emperor, will eventually create their own dynasty. Then, to my happiness can be as early as day of arrival at the wedding, the father publicly announced that he took over the source and as Executive Director Sheng Group. Then, he finally smiled at my efforts so long, there is no trace of win moved him, he finally smiled, mouth slightly move up a bit, really like a king. It is lonely farm wedding, I was just taking him, but do not feel happy, he dragged me around a toast, do not ask me tired. I followed him to walk with feet swollen, but do not dare say anything, afraid to sweep his Xing. suddenly grabbed me tight, I even smell alcohol on his Chunchi Jian thick, and then I stretched out a hand on his chest, he surprised a moment, looked at me for a moment, came back to God . for the first time such a formal introduction to me. The woman looked at me, his face flashed dark quickly, and then she smiled and reached out a hand, She was a glamorous woman. I'm blushing, nervous and shake her hand, ; you move really fast, does not always fall behind ah! housing, fire, and she extended the hand of a pretty Shuangxiu pulled his tie, and then only we can hear the voice said: out of shame! all out of his eyes and ears of the bad habits. father died a year later, when I came to understand why he did not insist and Xiao Huan against my marriage, because he hurry to find one person who can replace him to take care of I .23 years old, only one side of my husband, an outstanding, but to me indifferent husband. Xiao Huan always told me, in fact, I do not love you. and I was always wrapped up coffee, I only coffee. I cooked MOCA special bitter, bitter person can pull the nerve, so he drank only once in the honeymoon never drink. Then, as long as I am a coffee, he would say, In fact, I do not love you, but do not worry, do not you, I do not have today, I will not divorce. He said so, I would laugh, smile and then he will perceive light, and then he would say, do not proud, as you are not handling this the limbs, grains, regardless of the rich princess,bailey UGG boots, I most despise! In fact, he only half right. I laugh not because I feel proud, but feel sorry for him - he always Si Shouzhuo puzzling reluctant to give up the principle. For example for me, I am a very useless woman, read too well, there has never been a social work, was brought to frail, looks even more extraordinary was the daughter of style any errors . I'm ignorant, superficial and narrow-minded, I did not inherit his father's business, so he got the source for Sheng, I feel lucky, that the jobs of thousands of people, ah, how do I afford it. I laugh, because I He tied his sympathy, he clearly has been able to free, but he do not want to side to freedom. Although he did not love me, but for him this, but I feel very cute, so I will not say to him: to divorce to leave it, it does not matter! I would not say that because I do not want to leave him. I guess the world should be a woman like me there, knowing how their lack of charm, it had never expect to be treasured, never just pray that he will not be too harsh, I can not be so sad. night, 11 points, he came back. at his feet. dry. I always saw this, he busted their ass to work,UGG boots clearance, and then make a lot of money more than my father was alive. If a man has billions of dollars in assets, 365 days a year, only less than 20 days is In the rest, even the 20 days he is just a walk in the river, blowing a hair, look at the fireworks, there are moon and stars, that he make so much money, what is why? I asked him, but he laughed at endless, he said, you good for nothing woman! make money, it is a conquest, you never know! he said this, and looked so excited, it is a regal face. jingle bell! the door bell rang, I got up to open the door. ; in! ; Oh! All three were down about our jobs, and did not speak to me again. I honestly sat on another couch, curl, in the hand holding a mug, coffee cup, which is brown on me. out the window, a light. is Lu Yun, a cigarette dangling from his, looked at Liu and look dirty, men's topics, no more than two, money and women! Liu and Hey smile, it! Costa Rica was great, playing a woman does not have to spend money on. Luo Qing eat that bitch at the end of her husband, and now we do not worse than that! with admiration, he also looked at Shaw. Xiao Huan was drinking tea, he will smell a little cup to her lips, looked up and see before them, talk laugh, the field, and you gave me before they were allowed to bring a gift! ; Yun Son Do not be reconciled, there Xiaoge in, you are afraid she did not smile into flowers flowers! our chat is at 2 am. and I have been asleep on the sofa, I'm not a flower. The next day, the sun through the curtains fell on my face, I felt warm, then opened his eyes. ^ I still lying on the sofa. Do not think that will happen in my house on the popular TV series lens: the husband to his wife tenderly to bed, and turn off the lights before leaving a fond kiss. at my house, even if I slept in the toilet, he will not control me. I sat up and looked at the three cups on the table, suddenly amused. one by one, cleaned them and put in the closet, I phoned to the small north. small North is my CD a friend, we grew up together, when I got married, she made my maid of honor. small North took me to lunch, then watch a movie with me. But What is the name day of the film, about what, I do not Look in, I sat next to a small North, but their heart thump thump dance. because this movie theater, on the . I walked in the rain, the wind is very light, blowing the gentle rain, like a large dandelion, getting my clothes wet, and I in the rain in a circle, feel close to the whole sky, no longer lonely. small North sat on the steps of cinema entrance, hands Tuosai, she looked at me, she knew how happy I am. I will forehead glistening hair allocated up together, eyes closed, looked up, I want more rain. Then, with the distance of the closer, I saw him, relying on the arms of a beautiful woman, and his face looked at me Su Yin. , I just feel even colder. She turned to the side of the road shouting, Small North back, pull up the coat, cover my face, marginized in a woman, appears in the wrong place there, to provoke the displeasure of the emperor, and I dared not stay overnight in a small North, I honestly go back to that dark house, waiting for him to come back. wronged? ; Humph! turned his head and lit a cigarette, the living room to open a wall, the light is dim, so I only see his sparkling, sparkling eyes, white smoke still curling. the air, emerge from time to time a few of his the voice of the lips while smoking Min Zhu, like most of the kiss. I crouched in the sofa, looked down at his soaked by the rain was pale of foot. It was a not a moment, corner of my eye glimpse of his fingers sandwiched cigarette butts, put out numerous press it in the ashtray, he stood up and talked down to for me, do not wash! bedroom door, dark inside, no lights, I went to him to lie down, right, and then he began to exercise the right of the husband, I began to fulfill his wife's obligation. I did not dare to ask, why not, and Luo Qing in spent the night outside, asked him not telling me. Xiao Huan is a very strong-minded man, and he get along with people who've been will to his core, in a shallow dominated by his consciousness. This year, nearly 30 years of age he , I turned 24 years old, married for two years, we have no children. In fact, he knew I wanted a child, but he is not, he felt very interesting to me anxious, he often said to me in bed, I let you have children! I will not let you have a child! I think, maybe his heart was hate me, hate me he did not live up to expectations, no longer continue studying to finish high school, I learn nothing from the small rely on life when his father, grew up relying on his life, which makes him very annoying. because he admired, is a Luo Qing, as a woman, strong, independent, deal with life, not other people around, she is the only one ever to get rid of his woman, then she and his race each other to reach the height of each other, catch up. Of course, the people of his victory! December 6, 2004, the weather was a bit stuffy. sources of new real estate Sheng cut the ribbon, he and I attended a large customer conference. At the reception, he was spirited, as the focus of all attention, I was just taking him to accompany him everywhere, toast, and when we got married, I went to swollen feet, stomach do not know what things in churn, it hurts. He went over to shake hands with him. like to know everything. what to say, I was a white face, confusion, held out his hand, I want to say hello, but I caught his hand to throw up spit up, as if retching, are more acid water, I think the chest, nausea, took a deep breath to see a black eyes. our bedroom. I sat up and heard the living room the voice of busy keyboarding. go out to really see his eyebrows in a notebook to promote the work of the former. glasses, a hand rubbed his brow, tired and asked, hungry, I will give you instant noodles! drink too much coffee, will not sleep at night, so doctors say you are overworked, you convergence point, do not bother! out of the kitchen. sitting next to him, Our family is transparent glass bathroom wall, I looked at him in the shower, the back rolling heavily, he took a deep breathe. He must be tired, because the family no one can pressure him to share, no one share the victory with him. the taste of the water spray. stitched inside a small cloth, embroidered with three words: Cheng Siying. for this, I secretly happy for a long time, every time he wore a white sweater that play golf, I would not help laughing. What smirk! of course, that was my happiest time. because Shaw was busy during that time, very few out of pleasure. he come home every night, a door frame like so tired, like scattered on the sofa . and then I brought out from the kitchen and learn something new for food, feed him a mouthful. He is very tired, not picky taste, seeking only to fill their stomachs. finished, he went to shower, and then lying in bed, I gave him a massage, so he had to sleep comfortably. Although not a great thing, but he was busy preparing for the post, I think life is very full, very satisfied. One day, I learned a new dish , in the kitchen hard to Daoteng, from time to time looked at his watch, 9:00, he should come back. is thought when the doorbell rang really. I quickly ran to the door. He and Liu and hobble around drunk as Xiao Huan. I was surprised, and quickly let them come. personal. back of the hand. I really want to take her out, and although she and Xiao Huan very close, but Xiao Huan never to bring her home. And I have been, this as his most immediate gentleness. I bit his hand back , bite out of purple teeth marks several Road. I really want her out! orange curtain down windows, I sat opposite the sofa Xiao Huan, holding mug, a cup of coffee while staring at the Law clear. , opened his eyes fascinated, and he sat up shaking, looked at the Lu-Yun and Liu Jin, looked at the Luo Qing. Suddenly hands around, and firmly put her in his arms, Lu Yun and Liu and looked at me awkwardly, when the living room has no one. I got up, wearing a gray blouse, ran out to find Xiao Huan. I went to the source of Somerset House, looking up at the towering office buildings, Xiao Huan on the top floor I want to see him. to such a thought, I drive a red, but rushed to the elevator to see his style as lively as ever and a group of people came out from the elevator, his face is also not the decadent hangover last night . I'm surprised a moment, look at him, then look at their gray smocks, plates with random bun, looked haggard, how dare I go past. Shaw farewell go after big clients, one hand still inserted in the suit trousers pocket, the other hand is elegant, hanging at the side of the trunk, is preparing to turn into the elevator, he surprised a moment, saw me and hid next to the pot. I come out stiff, pull the pull clothes, I turned to him, but the only sound heard Ding Dong, the elevator door is closed. I honestly sat Odeon in for two hours, he finally came slowly. , he asked. What happened? then gave me a platinum card, replied, him, he simply did not go, sit there and eat with me. things, I give you also get to meet anyone. But you are too easily satisfied, and that makes me happy, you know! I owe you is money, you have to give the opportunity I gave you! said that very seriously. I head down, do not speak. first met? could not understand English, but I know you conquer the foreigner, because he thumbs up to you! and you just faint smile, very magnanimous self-confidence. ? a cup of tea, shook his head, he does not not slow Xu said, , no you, no I am today, which I will never forget. ; that you love Luo Qing? ? his back, he walked out the door when the Odeon, welcome Miss blushing said to him, welcomed the next visit, he was cool to go out, and then crossed the road, opposite Somerset House is the source of his dynasty! After a week, I went to a small North, a small North pregnancy, both boys and girls, called the name of the South. _ I am sitting on the bed to the small North Xiaoping Guo, a small North smiled and said, tension, only 1 month it! ; finished I handed her the apple. small North bitter bite, looked at me, eyes suddenly became sad, I'm surprised a moment, laughed,Bailey UGG boots, , my husband and I will take care of you, to your home, give you warm, my children will call your mother! think profit, do not leave him alone! , was about to speak, but felt a dizzy, head severely plummeted to the bed. I do not know how long, I felt my face had been slapped, I opened my eyes, anxious to see the small North. I rubbed a small North sweat on his forehead,UGG boots, anxiously asked, North busy on my forehead stopped hand and whipped a few seconds later, she hugged me crying, she said, like me all day, her face hard, his head empty of people, not ill be called strange! do not know. Sunday, he slept Lanjue, two in the afternoon and got up, came out from the bedroom to see the little North is to examine my vision. , she asked me. reason. He is like listening to a joke, chuckle for a long time before carefree said, To play for a while, then said, dare to look at him. Xiao Huan smiled, . married all these years, we have never spoken well. I ring and his ring had never met, because we never used to hold hands. I hugged him, So are most afraid of and you have sex, because you just vent it! right? you not to have children, does not matter, I do not mind. I lived in your hands, but you can give me some space for fantasy, let me gradually to be independent? go. I know, he just wanted to vent! _ Light to kiss me, Chunchi Jian, he just answered, sorry! sun secretly learn the dark breath, I had a chance to draw the curtains when it has the room into a gorgeous fusion of painting. I looked down to see the play halo of light on the ground, as with life, like to beat. time is 8 am, the bed empty, he has to go to work. I wrapped in blankets, standing barefoot on the floor, hair, the Luo is also a touch of perfume, it is the taste of last night he left. I am a very monotonous life of a woman, no more monotony of his time, every day is get up, order food, watch television, a person shopping, then go where which, hungry, eat just anywhere. If do not want to go shopping, I sat at home all day, until he comes back, and his talk, although not say much, but that would be my day the happiest moment. before Shaw introduced me to some of his friend's wife, he said that they, like me, life is to enjoy every day, and he wanted me to learn with them. However, Xiao Huan should know that I and those who wife are not the same, there are an array of high-end jewelry leisure club is not for me, when I with them, I am not happy, then quietly called to the small northern, north no matter what the circumstances are to pick me, then took me to dinner. dinner to knock my head and said: We think profit is a small house stupid! money do not know the flowers! that time, I laughed, and small when the North with the total is very easy. really, in addition to Shaw, who is my favorite little north, although the small North and I do not, she is even better than the Luo Qing woman, life never easy to compromise, and determination, she very cheerful and lively, and considerate. So, I grew up listening to her very words, only heard, that is, and Xiao Huan marry it. However, the small North said, grow up, I know you, knowing that he is just using you, you are willing to marry him, what can I say? because we think profit is a small family fool, so even if your husband will not give you happiness does not matter, I'll give you happy enough. She, and Xiao Huan will meet again and be a woman so that he admires; but if my next life, I am still me, they will not meet him again, even if met, we must pass, do not love at first sight. Open TV, pick a channel. I began to sit on the sofa drinking coffee, 一杯接一杯, mouth full of bitter taste, headache. I have a headache and they will look out the window, the curtains will be the wind occasionally move easily corner of the window showing the outside world. streets look like those white-collar women, and suddenly I am like the cards in the JOKER .. said that men do not love wise woman, in fact, I know, deeply know The more good men, the more eager to an intelligent companion. so ignorant they do not love a woman, even if he married you. drinking coffee, bottom of the cup a few slices of white pill that has not been fully diluted, I They fished, little by little to eat. Recently, I rely on diazepam life, or too sober, then it is easy to collapse ... ... my life has begun to countdown. However, no character is so monotonous life, but still a Let me endless nostalgia, do not give up! ... ... Xiao! you know? much I love you. I'll wait for him to come back, he came back would say: pale one day. No one can ignore him, and secondly, I had no energy to pondering his thoughts, because my eyesight is getting worse, began ringing in the ears frequently, just to maintain the normal state and talk to him, has been very difficult. However, Xiao Huan fact, when there are gentle, but his gentle always make me more lonely. For example, he would ask what I want, eat what I answered, he would ...